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Midnight???
Mar. 14th, 2016 12:52 amTechnically, it’s now 12:35, and I’ve missed even the half-hour grace period by 5 minutes. But… whatever, they’re more like guidelines anyway.
Today kind of sucked, in that “didn’t talk to anyone, didn’t see anyone” special way. Eventually culminating in reading fics posted under the “Suicide Attempt” tag on AO3.
The worst part of days like this is that it doesn’t feel all that bad. I just… don’t want to do anything. Sometimes, I’ll actively want to read, or escape into reading from something scary, but days like today? Nah. It’s just the path of least resistance. And the time just slips away… there’s another couple hours gone, oops. And there’s another night, guess you’re not getting enough sleep tonight. Oh, looks like you overslept, might as well not go to work today. And then it piles up…
And I don’t want anyone to see me. Having people around sounds like way too much work. But I’ve done this enough times that I know that the longer I go without seeing anyone, the harder it will be to pull myself out.
